laying in bed with a boy
you used to feel things for
the marks he leaves
against my skin
I still tell myself are yours
I am laying here in my living room staring up at the ceiling and listening to the clock and it is silent and the whole house is asleep and all I can think about is how strange loss feels, and I’m focusing in on that pain directly right in the little nook in my chest and I’m just trying to remind myself that this is part of the bargain of being alive
so think about him, revisit that love and let it come back into your chest and recognize how foreign it is. appreciate it for what it was at the time and understand why it left your life. remember all of the reasons as to why you made him your past, and ask yourself if you really want to revisit those things regardless of the nostalgia. truth be told you might always miss him, i even miss people that were terrible to me, because even if they loved in a toxic way the way i felt was still pure and practically overbearing. let it come back into your thoughts and then let him back out. you are moving on and you are walking forward and there are so many beautiful people ahead of you, keep going.
ahhhhh baby no, no no no do not keep yourself underwater with something like that. i’ve been through a relationship where they’ve told me they needed time and it roughly translated into them breaking up with me in the most cowardly and hurtful way possible. i’m not saying it’s what he’s doing, but if he’s still liking things of yours but isn’t even in communication with you then i would try and detach yourself and slowly move yourself on, you said it yourself and you know the answer babe, you do NOT and should NEVER have to wait on someone to DECIDE if they want to be with you or not. even if he does and does need time, it doesn’t mean during that time you should sit around and wait on him, that time is yours princess and not his, so you need to pick yourself up and view the world on your own again.
omg these messages are swelling my heart ugh it’s ok because girls are so sweet n presh and I wanna kissem all, I mean I’m a really lovey little thing aside from my looks so maybe there’s enough lovins to go around iono!!!